IT'S OKAY, HE GOT IT.

IT'S OKAY, HE GOT IT.

Sometimes I feel alone 

The pressure pulling hard

I feel like giving up 

But the shame that comes with quitting stops my hand 

I thought the burden will go with time 

I fought like my life depends on it

I pulled the rope from under the bed 

And tied it tight around the neck 

But the thought that the world will laugh at my pain 

Made the rope drop to the ground 

I thought to drown my self in work that always seems to work right?

Then the choice of getting the pain from another source came knocking and I dragged that knob like my life depends on it.

The door for physical pain opened wide and I took it

The cut sensations were painful at first but with time it became a habit.

I tore through that skin like it wasn't mine.

Hurting the skin like it was the cause for the pain.

The smile was permanently on my face.

Everyone envied me.

'Why is your life so perfect' 

I always thought perfect came with comfort and passion 

Or was I wrong all these while was it hurt and regret?

Because I felt like my body had given up on me and my mind too 

Maybe am a walking dead

The shame of giving up over weighed the thought of how good it will feel to give up.

Just like magic it all went away not by the twinkle of an eye but by the constant determination to love God and work with him.

Then I knew that it wasn't the shame of quitting that kept me tearing at that skin but the purpose of God and His glory.

He wanted me to testify that he Indeed use us to show the world that he still got it and there is nothing we can do about it.

- SARA M

I wrote this because depression has taken more lives than we give it credit for. It has ruined us without consent.

Don't be scared to talk to someone about it because holding back will cause more harm than good. I know talking to a stranger is not on your vision board but if you don't talk now am not sure you can do those visions.

I have spoken to a stranger before its awkward and very annoying but they always listen and knows the right thing to say. 

Your life matter not just for you but for God and people who love you.

I love you so much and I want you to be better.